a wife

C had a job interview yesterday.
His first interview in over 5 years. I was sad that I couldn't watch him get ready in the morning, snazzing it up in his suit.

I hope he gets this job. We both need this, I think.
But the scary part is, he won't be home most of the time. At least that is my fear right now. You see, he will be required to work at night, and graveyard shifts. You do what you have to, right?

It's going to be very hard adjustment. Since we dated, C and I have never been apart. We've never went one day without seeing each other, minus the 1 time I went away with my family for over a week. After we got married, we've always eaten dinner together, we've always slept together at the same time, we've always had similar schedules.
And now all that can change.

C.H.A.N.G.E.

While I like the possiblity of change, and all things that change brings, I am already feeling lonely. I'll have to eat by myself, sleep by myself, watch TV by myself...
Growing up in a large family, I never really had a chance to eat by myself. I haven't slept alone since the day we got married. TV, well, that's not really that bad.

I will miss you C. I know it's still indefinite what'll happen with this change, but I already miss you. On the bright side, I hope this will make both of us appreciate each other more, since we won't have as much time together... Only time will tell.
Change.